A million voices seemed to scream in my head
Drowning the sorrow of a hopeless dream of him warming my bed
And as I broke down and fell to my knees
I realized this delusional infatuation was nothing but a disease
He abandoned me, alone without a goodbye
And every night I couldn’t help but silently cry
I shake my head, He had a wife and children, I wasn’t a romance
Nothing ever happened between us except some secret glance
Though I love how he’d stand less than an inch away
Lean in and tell me how people annoyed him today
I could feel the sweet heat of his breath across my neck
And then at the end of the day, when it meant nothing, I was a wreck
I can’t believe he never suspected a thing
I visited him looking gorgeous, my heart on his string
I made him cookies, brought snacks and drinks
But it seemed like too much wishing did nothing but jinx
How could I believe a word he ever said
He said I was his friend and he didn’t want that to end
How stupid I was, how naive could I be
To think…that he could ever love me.
I should have known better, no attachment my only rule
But to my own self, I did nothing but fool
How a heart can learn to love again, I never understood
Until that fateful day I met him, I would
And now that it’s been two months and three days
I’ve finally realized that it was all a passing phase.
I can’t remember what he looked like, why I liked him at all.
I’ve moved on with my life, and brushed myself up after my fall.
